(NOTE: Photo at left is from my christening, about 1950)
I tend to forgot different things I’ve written so far, so please forgive me if I’m repeating myself.
Early this morning I gave my father a dose of morphine, not for pain, but for breathing. I only thought morphine was used for pain, but was told differently from Hospice.
I noticed an improvement shortly after the very small dose. His deep chest movements stopped.
Dad sleep for a good part of the day, although we tried to keep him awake for parts of the day. We don’t want a situation as we had a few days ago where he slept so much during the day, he was awake for much of the night.
Laying awake in a darkened room in his condition, during much of the night has to be very frightening. I do leave the dining room light on very low, so light is able to filter into the living room. I need that when I awake to check on him.
Yesterday, he was able to say goodbye to Larry Stein, a friend from the Masonis for over 50 years. Dad thanked Larry for being his friends for so many years.
Today, he was visited by Reds and Louise Goble stopped by today. Reds has been a close friend for over 70 years. My Dad thanked both of them for coming by and thanked Reds for being such a good friend all these years.
Uncle Richard and Phyllis stopped by today for about two hours. They just left. Aunt Mary and Mary Lynn just arrived, although he is about ready to go to sleep.
To show you how sharp he still is, Mary Lynn’s husband Paul Bunting, ran in a marathon today. As soon as they walked in, Dad wanted to know how Paul did in the race.
He is growing progressively weaker each day and his voice is almost gone. I believe he is starting to bleed internally.
I truely believe the end is near. He is ready to go with his mother, father, brother, and his dog ‘Pitiful’.
His mind is still sharp and there is no pain. Let’s hope the pain never arrives and he can go peaceably in his sleep.
He doesn’t want to be like this and wants to pass.